Things I Will Never Tell You #2


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There came a time in my life

A realization after all 18 years

Fairytale endings

Do not exist

Pessimistic

I am not

But reality has always knocked on my door

With a resonating echo

Happiness

Does not stay forever

She, like any guest takes her leave

Never overstaying her welcome

That first crush

Was cruel and pathetic

Made you hate him

But somehow never leaves your mind

It was never supposed to be like this

Wanting to inflict pain

But scared

At the thought of it

Intoxicated on life

Is what I want

So out of it

That nothing makes sense

Smaller finer details

Scream out

Pinpricks on your body

For ignoring far too long

Laugh

Till your insides hurt

And your eyes start to water

Hiding the real truth behind your tears

The stars

Litter and glitter the sky

Arms distance away

Yet so far away

Metamorphosis

Of sorts takes place

Where my wings are brighter

And full of life

The winds howl

Blow up against my car

Smacking and smacking

Trying to finish things off

In that moment

I want to give up

Rest my head against the dashboard

And hear the sounds of destruction

Sleep it off

Close your eyes

To the rest of the world

And ignore

He talked to me that day

As if his words of hurt

No longer existed

Completely forgotten

But as his lips moved

Saying something

All I heard

His ridicule of yesterday

 

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