Three Alphabets

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Tomorrow

Tomorrow brings the truth

It all comes down to the three alphabets

Three alphabets decide your faith

They decide whether you’re good enough

Whether what you did last semester paid off

Cramming

Stressing

Crying

The laughter died down last night

The broth of despair bubbled deep within

What the future holds

Nobody knows

It’s like closing your eyes

Spreading your arms wide

Let yourself fall

Without the prospect of a parachute

Or a hand to catch you

Those three alphabets

Can soften your fall

Or widen the black hole

Where the ground can’t come fast enough

The heart thuds

Thud! Thud! Thud!

The breath hitches

Until breathing becomes a chore

The air can’t fill up the lungs fast enough

Breathe

In

Out

In

Out

Stop stressing

Keep calm

No, don’t pull your hair

Count to 10

1

2

3

4

It’s not working

Because those three alphabets is all my brain can think of

All my brain can decipher at the moment

All my brain wants to hold onto

When I desperately want it out of my head

Help!

Those three alphabets hold my future

And what might or might not become